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Venezuelan 🇻🇪and Portuguese 🇵🇹, born in Caracas, Parroquia La Vega, growing up between Petare and Guatire, with a Venezuelan family on the mother's side, and a Portuguese family on the father's. From a mixed family of 4 children, a black mother and a white father, (so I have 3 brothers… 3 blood brothers of whom I am lucky that they are and represent what brotherhood is in life too, and equally to my happiness they are even my 3 best friends), that is my family, one of the most important things for me 😊😁⭕❤️.
Since I was a child, I always drew, and constantly ideate and create things was something that I was passionate about. Always enjoying any school activity that had to draw, paint, create things with pasta, rice, make sculptures with clay, paint stones, in short, any activity related to art.
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Although I always saw everything related to art as a passion, I opted to study Public Accounting / Economics at the university, being then professionally an Accountant / Economist. A 5-year university career in Venezuela.
I never stopped drawing, and ideate things, I did my first oil paintings at 11 years old (first and only until many years later); to draw, over time it was more and more sporadically, making a drawing every 4 to 5 years only for a long time, and despite not practicing or drawing continuously, I enjoyed it more and more, and they came out better.
As for my health, I never had a serious health problem in my childhood, but I did continually go to the hospital for regular consultations or to the emergency room, suffering from kidney stones since I was 4 years old, and suffering from attacks of renal colic constantly; throughout my childhood having to visit hospitals.
Around the year 2003 I started with some severe headaches, and after a series of tests I was diagnosed with "migraine" and I started taking medication to calm the moments of headaches. Then around the year 2011, I started with a different headache than the one that started in 2003, this time it was a pain that never went away, that stayed there 24/7, from when I woke up in the morning until I went to sleep at night, sometimes a much stronger pain, sometimes not so strong, but ultimately always there.
After many exams, many hospitals and clinics, many different specialists and doctors, and many different types of treatments (some even quite strong to the point of being difficult to get out of bed); after all, although problems were found in my health (such as a problem in the jaw/maxilla that got stuck and could not open, being an inherited genetic deformity known as "TMJ Dysfunction"; needing 2 years of treatments for a relatively normal state), no test or diagnosis could explain or improve those permanent 24/7 headaches.
In 2016, I left Venezuela with one of my brothers (not in the best conditions), to Portugal, specifically Madeira, where I continue to live today.
After 3 months in Madeira (Portugal), looking for a job with my brother, and after dealing with a progressive deterioration of health, during those 3 months, I was admitted to the hospital from the emergency, where I could not move, losing strength in the whole body, being worse from the bottom up (the lower the area of the body, the worse the condition; not being able to move fingers, feet, and legs, and not feeling anything except sharp pain).
Afterward 6 months hospitalized, a lot of effort, work and willpower, I had a "quick" and unexpected improvement, due to the condition I arrived in (according to the opinions of doctors, nurses, and hospital staff), after a lot of rehabilitation and subsequent physiotherapy and occupational therapy in the hospital to recover both the strength and sensitivity of the whole body, learn to walk again, and regain motor skills, strength and sensitivity of the hands and fingers... After needing help to do everything, for example, getting dressed and even getting out of bed into a wheelchair; after being able to walk with a walker; and finally after being able to walk with crutches by myself, and being able to fend for myself in basic needs, I was discharged from the hospital. To later start a second stage of physiotherapy and occupational therapy that would last 2 more years, improving constantly and rapidly, until no more improvement was recorded. Taking about 4 years to stop using crutches on the street and walk on my own.
According to my main doctor and everyone involved, from the condition I arrived in, few if any people have such a great improvement, in such a short time; and although my current condition still has many physical limitations, and is not at all the conditions of someone in good physical health, probably for me, it is the limit of improvement. But despite all that, and still continue with the same headaches that I had since 2011, 24/7... I continue daily trying to have the same positive mindset and focus since the beginning of this process that began in 2016, that I can still get better, even if all the probabilities say not.
To finish talking about my health, I would like to give a special thanks to the people in my family who were and continue to support me in any way they can. And a greeting and thanks just as special to all the staff of the Dr. Nélio Mendonça Hospital, to all the nurses, doctors, physiotherapists and occupational therapists, maintenance staff, assistants, auxiliaries and cleaners. In the same way to the staff of the Santa Cruz Health Center, physiotherapists and occupational therapists, assistants, and everyone who collaborated with me at some point.
To Mrs. Virginia, Mr. Duarte and his daughter Filipa. Andreia from the Polo de Emprego de Santa Cruz and Delia from Social Security. Not forgetting either those 2 ladies from the Centro de Saúde de Urgência de Machico, both called Maria, who were especially kind to my brother and me (if you ever read this, maybe you'll remember those 2 irmãos fraquinhos [my brother with a little Afro and me with long hair and long beard]) … Also the Lady of the red car (unfortunately I don't remember her name very well) who saw us walking from Funchal to Santa Cruz.
Making a Special Mention to the staff of the 7th Andar, Letícia, Diva, Clementina, Denise, Isa, Diana, Sonia, Paula, Ana, Clara, Isabel, Angels, Diogo, Mariana, Rosa, Fabiana, Maria, Lília, Vera, Mafalda (and many more, you know who you are, I tried to give everyone a flower or a leaf 🌺🌸🏵️🍂🌿, although I couldn't all) from the Hospital Dr. Nélio Mendonça, and my main doctor Dr. Orlando who was always with me from start to finish (without him I couldn't have achieved what I did); always grateful to those who gave me extra support, extra good energy and good vibes, in those most crucial and critical moments... Last but not least, to the people who were not part of the hospital, but were still there for short or long periods; who also provided attention, a smile, good feelings and good vibes; those other interns/hospitalized patients and their relatives, in this regard a special greeting and much love to the Correia Family, Pedro, Luz, Cláudia, Liliana and her boyfriend Ricardo.
And as the experiences of the life are what make us, shape us and help us to be what we are, I wouldn't change a thing about all the bad moments and difficulties in my life... Since not only as a person, but as an artist, all the lived experiences make you evolve; and just the 6 months hospitalized, are part of the things that contributed to the final decision to only dedicate myself to Art and to create. For example, it was in those 6 months, the first times that people outside my family saw the art that I could make, as well as the first time since my childhood that I drew daily (although for me they were shit drawings compared to what I could do before) ... Among the things I did day by day, apart from rehabilitation, physiotherapy, occupational therapy and personal training in the hospital room, I dedicated the spare time to drawing daily, and so little by little everyone began to see and be interested in the drawings I was making, thus being able to see for the first time a wide range of reactions, appreciations and evaluations of my art, being called for the first time in that place "Artist", and seeing how they themselves ran the voice, that there was an "Artist" there, and so others wanted to see the drawings too.Although I have lost skills, and I don't have the same agility in my hands, I try to adapt to new realities and do the best I can with what I have. Without the same physical or mental abilities as before, I still think I have enough to do what I want; what I have clear, is that I will not stop trying 😊😁. I am not a specialist in anything (it is not my intention to be), life is too short not to try to do everything you would like to do, so I try to learn and do everything that interests me or would like to do or create. It is not an option for me to impose limits on myself, or to tell myself that I can't (there are others for that) ... I am always passionate about learning new things, creating, basically to create; I enjoy drawing, painting, the photography, filming and editing, digital art and 3d; writing, the fashion and style, to create music, of course I'm not a musician or the best singer (let's leave it at, not a musician, not a singer), but I like to make music too and sing; I enjoy to create things with wood, with paper, jewelry, and barbershop; basically create and transmit emotions and feelings. That is why I investigate and experiment always using emotions and feelings as a base; and then try to transmit them while I create.So in an almost impossible synopsis of my life, among many bad and good experiences, dangers, insecurities, illnesses, severe pain, discomfort, difficulties and challenges, which continue to this day, trying to live "one day at a time", I have been able to maintain a positive attitude, trying to always have a big smile and a good vibe (which I am not always able to maintain or have, but I try, and I will continue trying) ... Since after a lot of determination, willpower and discipline I managed to improve against all probabilities, I made the decision to dedicate myself to my passion, the art, creating and trying to live from my art. The art went from being my hobby to being my big bet, today thanks to the support of my family with a lot of sacrifice on their part, I dedicate myself to my art, to creating, to taking care of my health and trying to be as healthy as possible (and although it is a daily struggle I try, day by day, with its ups and downs, better days and worse days, advances and setbacks, but always trying to give and do the best I can that day, one day at a time). Today, I dedicate myself 100% to my art, to learn and improve (both my art and my knowledge in different areas that together help me reach the goal), also to stay focused despite health difficulties, and try to improve and find that necessary balance between health, art and of course the goal of making a living from my art, and going from having the help of my family to helping them too. Basically the Art and to Create, is what I am, is what I have and is my choice, and the goal is to make a living from it… Do I have the necessary determination and discipline? Yes... Some days are worse than others and more difficult than others? Yes... But has that stopped me or will it stop? Not... For what I have the almost inexplicable or unconscious certainty that Yes I will be successful.Without a doubt, with more failures than hits, with more illness than health, I was fortunate to have a certain level of intelligence and a mind that compensates the disadvantages, still leaving the positive balances in my favor, and I have no choice but to keep trying; and even if I can't always or I don't always get it, if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that I'll keep trying. And I will continue creating art full of feelings, as well as trying to show the beauty that can be found even in the worst situations, the beauty in every instant and as always... Finding beauty everywhere, seeing the beauty in everything and everyone, seeing and finding the art that is part of everything and everyone, seeing and finding the art everywhere, because everything is Art, we are all Art, we just have to take the time to see it, to find it... In us, in everyone, and in everything 🔴.